The Journey of Preparation to Singleness, Marriage & Intimacy With God
Day 1: What Am I Signing Up For?
Right now I can’t tell if I’m on the verge of a brilliant groundbreaking discovery to better mankind, or if I have lost my mind. This new project that I am starting today is one that scares me to my core. However, I know it is one that is sure to peel back the layers of myself in order to not only be a catholic and therapeutic endeavor of self-empowerment for myself but for others also. My intention in writing this personal blog is to empower my readers and to help them know that they are not alone.
What is this blog about?
I am not naive to sharing my personal story, in fact it is one of my powerful attributes as a psychotherapist. With my natural ability to disclose prevalent testimonies to help my clients heal I have an astonishing success rate. Also, in my first book that launched this past March, entitled Beautiful Greatness; The Psychology of The Unlimited Life, I was able to be extremely candid about my past battles with mental illness. The difference in both of those scenarios is that I directed and edited the narrative of those stories. I had full control of the topics and of what I shared.
This blog is about the most intimate area of my life...My Love Life! I never talk about this area of my life with anyone, with the exception of one of my close trusted and tried friends from high school, who I will refer to as The Apostle. This new blog is going to be about my personal journey regarding my singleness, future marriage and intimacy with God.
The story behind, why am I doing this?
It’s kind of embarrassing to say, but this whole thing started with me having a full blown meltdown, ugle cry, two-year-old tantrum fit, when I learned that a dear friend of mine had crossed over from the “I” to the “We” (the birth of a relationship). I didn't understand or fully know why I reacted in such a way, so I called my trusted friend, The Apostle, who threw in your face kind of love, nursed me back to sanity and then helped me gain clarity of what I was going through.
The core takeaways from our talk was that the fear of losing a dear friendship, brought up that I was still hurt and even angry regarding my past relationships. She further stated that I had some healing to do, and that the incident regarding my friends new relationship helped bring up all of the hurt that was still living in my heart. She then said something I was not ready to hear…”I do believe your king is coming, but I don’t want him to come until your totally restored…..In other words she was saying, girlfriend that tantrum you just had, is proof you're not ready to get married yet!
Ouch! What!!! Hold the breaks...I wouldn't take it that far…Apostle! I did honor her advice and role in the kingdom of God, but I didn't want to hear that. Yet deep inside I knew she was right. The hardest part about all of this was that I thought I was healed from my past hurts and betrayals from my previous relationships, but as you can see by now I wasn't.
So where do we go from here?
I asked my friend what did she recommend I do, she stated “take us on your journey of preparation and intimacy with God”. So as prescribed by The Apostle, as of today the 25th day of September the year of 2019 I commit to a year of 365 straight days of blogging my personal journey of letting go of the stigma of being divorced, embracing the beauty of my singleness, preparing my spirit, mind and body for my purpose partner king, while deepening my intimacy with my God.
What’s in it for you?
I fully don’t know or understand what all this entails or how it will unfold. I do have a sense that it will be of great empowerment for you and for me. Like the Oprah effect during the Oprah Winfrey Show, how she shared her heart as she helped her listeners heal and be empowered. I too will share my heart in this cross between a diary, personal empowerment moments, teaching styled blog that is sure to help those who are divorced, single, courting, engaged, married, and in love with God to deepen their relationship with themselves as they too embark on their Journey of Preparation to Singleness, Marriage & Intimacy With God.
If your with me it’s about to be a bumpy ride, but I’m sure it’s going to be all worth it!
HERE WE GO!
With Beautiful Love