The Journey of Preparation into Singleness, Marriage & Intimacy With God
Day 197: YOU ARE NOT MY GOD YOU'RE MY LOVER
This blog post is going to be a deep and personal insight for the reader of what God is doing for its writer. And I write it only to help you in your journey of preporation into singleness, marriage and intimacy with God.
I was excited and eagerly anticipated the STRAT.I.JEE w/ Levi Harrell Instagram live, where he was scheduled to interview both Ryan and Viktoriya Cole. As the moment arrived I was not disappointed. The couple discussed all things related to love, courtship, marriage and parenting in their brilliantly elegant and at times humorous way. I remember my greatest take away was that I wanted not just what they had, but the method on how they obtained it. With purity, honesty and God leading the way. Viktoriya had said something that stayed with me, she revealed that she was truly content and not in need of a husband, when Ryan found her. And how Ryan was not detered or ran away when she first rejected him. By the end of my night I would understand fully. Keep reading...
It was still early so I decided to get on YouTube. The first thing that caught my eyes was “Breaking Ungodly Soul Ties” by Pastor Paula White.
I began watching eager to notice what God was attempting to reveal to me. It came gently yet and almost undetected at first, when she mentioned that she had made her husband her God. Still oblivious to the personal relevance I continued to watch with great admiration for her openness regarding her divorce.
Later that evening as I was in deep intimate reflection of the Cole’s and the video of Pastor Paula White, the Lord began to speak to me, and my eyes and heart were soon opened.
The healing revelation was that I too had made my husband my God. At the times I should had looked to God, I looked to my husband to meet and fulfill the needs of my soul, something he could never been able to do. This not only put a strain on him, it disappointed me and in the end, it aided in the end of our marriage.
If that wasn't enough, God revealed that even though we were no longer married, I had now placed the idea of a husband as my God. Now I’m not one who thinks about getting married constantly, not at all, however when I do, I must admit, that I esteemed this position in my life very highly.
And that is why God revealed that no relationship with any man, would be safe with that type of expectancy and pressure. Because no man in the world had the capacity for the office of God.
This gave the Isaiah 54:5 greater meaning; For thy Maker is thine husband; the Lord of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.
This is why woman like Viktoriya, and men like Ryan Cole are together and how the world looks to them with enjoyment regarding their relationship. It's because they entered into their covenant marriage knowing who actually satisfies the graving and desires of their soul.
Today’s Lesson: Thou shall have no other God
Now if I were to have gotten married prior to knowing this, would I have with awareness though my lover to be my God? Of course not, however like a repeated cycle I would unconsciously.
On the journey of singleness, marriage and intimacy with God, in order to protect the relationships in your life, seek God first for all things that your soul desires, this includes
Attention when you crave it
Intimacy when your lonely
Compassion when you lack it yourself
Tenderness when you hurt
Comfort when your scared
Understanding when your confused
Safety and protection at all times
And the satisfaction of being whole and complete
So until tomorrow #seekgodfirst
With Beautiful Love